Saturday, July 26, 2008

REVIVE!!!!

revive!
after more than a week my antibody keep on increasing their numbers, fighting with all sort of viruses+bacterias, my body condition had returned to it's healthy state, eventough, there still some part of my body seems having it's aftereffect of the battle between the antibody and the pathogens.
but, whatever it is, the main point is...my body revived!!!
yeay! i want to celebrate it!

having this kind of battle had keep me restraint from doing my daily 'vigorous' activities.
  •     unable to eat all my favourite dishes+snackes
  •     unable to play outside from my home
  •     unable to move freely on my own accord
but, what makes me feel very agitated is,
unable to stay up late night in front of my laptop [thus keeping me off from the network and watching my fav vids]

now, i fully back on my feet...i should take my revenge head on!
yeah! let's surfing like crazy! 24/7!!!
wuhuu~!!!

Tuesday, July 15, 2008


"yesterday is history
tomorrow is mysteries
today is a gift, that's what its called 'present'"
This phrase is quite a catch, don't u think so?

Sunday, July 13, 2008

Easier way to lead ur life?

"it's easier to be pessimistic and blame everything for anything that doesn't go your way.
it's easier to just lose hope and let go.
it's easier not to put effort into anything.
it's eaiser to be free and let everything slip.
it's easier not to care about a damn single thing.
it's easier to lose hope.


it's just easier that way.

isn't it? "

Is it so?
Personally,I think that is a foolish statement.
Eventough, I believe, most of us do think that way. Me too.
But that's only for a moment, after allowing that thought goes in my mind, i just let it pass.
I nvr have serious thought on that statement.

Frankly, if I really want my life to be THAT easy, would I ever find statisfication that I desire so much in my life?
I believe, without hardship, problems, life would be bored like hell and no excitement!
Leading life like that is meaningless, needless to say.
I enjoy feeling scared, troubled, even stress!
As , when I able to find ways to escape from the problems...
I feel very good about myself!
and soon afterthat, I start longing for troubles and problems...
But, i still have limits though.
That's when that foolish statement came to my head.
As i mention earlier, i just let it pass for a moment though.
As I want to enjoy the excitement being in trouble anyway~

I just hope that, ppl are not really gives up on their hopes to stay alive.
As i believe, as long as u alive in this world, there still hope.

if u feel alone, believe me, ur selfish-only thinking about ur self.
u dont even think about other ppl who cares bout u, which u dont realise it.
evn if ur alone, there still actually cares-God.
As why He evn bother to create u in the first place, if He wants u to live ur lives!
if u feel ur a failure, so what?
it's not like u lose ur life right? u still alive.
and u had to find ur ways to find find a new success, new way, ur way!
make it a new counterattack!
I got carried away though.
Well, it just that i feel kind of annoyed of ppl who tend to give up evn wthout trying.
it makes me sad... though.

I, as a muslim, knows well.
That there is always someone watching over me, cares for me.
Always be for me ( cruel me, who sometimes forget about him...)
and whenever I had that foolish thought,
i always pray to god.
Hope that he lead me to roght path, which
sometimes I mistaken it as bad for me, but in fact is not,
as only He knows the best for me.
He is my God.
And muslims, should know better, that
we live only for Him,
no matter what we do,
no matter what kiind of hardship u face through,
Allah is the one we should live our life for.
and
only for him
we depends on...

Friday, July 11, 2008

Is it wrong to be 'different'?

Weird...i have this kind of 'interest' which make me totally different from people around me.
eventough i'm still in the right path, but deep down myself, i know i'm different, in a way that contradicts with the norm in society...
Oh my~
i hope someone will help me keep me straight in this path...
but i wonder if anyone understands with what i mean with 'different'.
it's quite troublesome actually, to split it out what exactly i'm 'different'...
i think...
i had to perseverance as
"perseverance will bring great success" ~quote from someone else's motto...>,<

Thursday, July 10, 2008

waiting in vain

from that day on, i still keep on waiting.
waiting for something that is hopeless.
bah!
~~~

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

Social Network: My Space, Facebook, Friendster, etc...

lately(or should i mention, eversince the IB result was announced?), there are some of my blogger friends and friends that asked me.
" do u have any social networking account? u know...my space, friendster, facebook....and sorts"
heck of course i know. I'm ITGS student, i know what the h**l of social networking.
instead, i'm telling those people
" i delete my account already,it had been months now, since the IRP program starting around april"
some of those people stare me blankly, some laugh, ( probably they already seen my page even before i delete them, so they know it's quite impossible if i'm saying that i delete those account, reasoning how interactive my page was).

But also, some people bother to know why I delete those account (why bother? my choice right?), and some even dont even bother to ask why I delete those ( heck! they only asked me bout it so that they can 'expanding' their network by 'add' me as their 'friend'! Damn! like I care! - well I do care in a way)

ok, for those who asked why, let me tell u-clearly and frankly, what those social network means to me.
it means nothing, wasting my time, nurturing so-called 'popular' attitude...

I know, these site exist to keep friends in touch ( of course, that's why these type of site exist and keep expanding), letting others keep updated about our self. ( ppl can choose what info to be updated bout) and getting new friends. Instead, above all the reasons, i find myself lost in the network.
i dont know why, but i don't put up info so much in my page (like usually people do. Well, I do feel some kind of inferior?) and I was sucker at keeping updating my own profile.

"so u dont have these accounts, how u manage to keep update with ur friends?"

"i'm using IM(currently using ym), and all my friends have my ym ( i suppose). so, if they want to know the very updated info about me, they can directly asking me through ym, that's clear, and i know who i'm releasing my personal info to, more like i feeling secured this way actually"
They asked me
" so, other people, outside of ur friends circle, know nothing bout u? i mean, this is WWW and we are now in globalization era!"
Heck, why i need to use social network just to say 'hello! i am globalizing!'

daa~. i have my way to say that i'm globalist! then, why these blog exist in the first place??? also, not only i have this blog, i have several sites, and one of them is at flickr! (why am I so proud over this thing? o yeah, i'm still obsessed with Flickr, since i just register at it days ago)

arggh~these people, only know to condem other people, who did not go 'along with their flow'. laughing at people just because I'm different.
heck, i'm the one who laughing at u people! because ur all the same! hahaha!!! ( laughing like a freak moron~)

Gee, why i'm get carried away over such lil thing?
answer: because i got worn out being asking the same question every now and then!

ahaha~
i REAAAALLLLYYY messing up myself...( that's not a good thing, i suppose. blatantly i feel despair, sorrow...oh dear...)

p/s: this entri somehow using numbers of words-that-should-not-be-posted.

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

dump??? kudaran na~...

just now...i've been dump
dont get me wrong.
it's not that i already have couple or something
but it's just kind of my 'hope' is being dump away by that person
i know what he up to
but it's just too much
after getting what he what to know
he left me
just like that
without having even slightest gratitude of expression of being a human
so...fake
gee...he should have some conscience, awareness or something of handling those people around him.
i should ignore him
but...
what should i sya, i'm too kinda to trust him that he changed
even slightest
ah~
sometimes,
i hate myself
i should know how to manage my relationship with others...
what a mess...

Sunday, July 6, 2008

the waiting is over...

Finally! the IB exam result is out...and...I'm bit surprised with the result...
Unexpectedly PLEASANT!!! YEAY~!!!
but...only to certain extend...as for some subjects, I know where I did wrong...
but I'm totally done!!!
YEAY~!!!
Celebrate? hurm...
i dont know, as my result may seem successful to some people, but, personally, I dont think so. Anyway, I'll just celebrate it, for my hardwork over 2 years.
whew~. I'm relieve...i'm done in this stage.
I got another stage awaiting for me this September...

Countdown to Check IB result; 3 hour 05 minutes left...

I don't know what to expect...but let's have fun! yeah~!!!

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

Modern Life?


when picture depict reality.
i guess, this pictures really says what I've been doing up to now.
somehow, i kind of feel irritated, proud (?), and sort of others feeling, until I feel nothing watching this picture...


Tuesday, July 1, 2008

Attitude is Everything.

I would like to share this story to you guys. I kind of like this story actually. Keep on reading!


Jerry was the kind of guy you love to hate. He was always in a good mood and always had something positive to say. When someone ask him how he was doing, he would reply, "If I were any better, I would be twins!"

He was a unique manager because he had several waiters who had followed him around from restaurant to restaurant. The reason the waiters followed Jerry was because of his attitude. He was a natural motivator. If an employee was having a bad day, Jerry was there telling the employee how to look on the positive side of the situation.

Seeing this style really made me curious, so one day I went up to Jerry and asked him, "I don't get it! You can't be a positive person all of the time. How do you do it?"

Jerry replied, "Each morning I wake up and say to myself, Jerry, you have two choices today. You can choose to be in a good mood or you can choose to be in a bad mood.' I choose to be in a good mood. Each time something bad happens, I can choose to be a victim or I can choose to learn from it. I choose to learn from it. Every time someone comes to me complaining, I can choose to accept their complaining or I can point out the positive side of life. I choose the positive side of life."

"Yeah, right, it's not that easy," I protested.

"Yes it is," Jerry said. "Life is all about choices. When you cut away all the junk, every situation is a choice. You choose how you react to situations. You choose how people will affect your mood. You choose to be in a good or bad mood. The bottom line : It's your choice how you live life."

I reflected on what Jerry said. Soon thereafter, I left the restaurant industry to start my own business.

We lost touch, but I often thought about him when I made a choice about life instead of reacting to it.

Several years later, I heard that Jerry did something you are never supposed to do in a restaurant business: he left the back door open one morning and was held up at gunpoint by three armed robbers. While trying to open the safe, his hand, shaking from nervousness, slipped off the combination.

The robbers panicked and shot him.

Luckily, Jerry was found relatively quickly and rushed to the local trauma center.

After 18 hours of surgery and weeks of intensive care, Jerry was released from the hospital with fragments of the bullets still in his body.

I saw Jerry about six months after the accident. When I asked him how he was, he replied, "If I were any better, I'd be twins. Wanna see my scars?"

I declined to see his wounds, but did ask him what had gone through his mind as the robbery took place.

"The first thing that went through my mind was that I should have locked the back door," Jerry replied. "Then, as I lay on the floor, I remembered that I had two choices: I could choose to live, or I could choose to die. I chose to live."

"Weren't you scared? Did you lose consciousness?" I asked.

Jerry continued, "The paramedics were great. They kept telling me I was going to be fine. But when they wheeled me into the emergency room and I saw the expressions on the faces of the doctors and nurses, I got really scared. In their eyes, I read, 'He's a dead man.' I knew I needed to take action."

"What did you do?" I asked.

"Well, there was a big, burly nurse shouting questions at me," said Jerry. "She asked if I was allergic to anything. 'Yes,' I replied. The doctors and nurses stopped working as they waited for my reply. I took a deep breath and yelled, 'Bullets!' Over their laughter, I told them, 'I am choosing to live. Operate on me as if I am alive, not dead."

Jerry lived thanks to the skill of his doctors, but also because of his amazing attitude. I learned from him that every day we have the choice to live fully.

Attitude, after all, is everything.

Francie Baltazar-Schwartz