makes me happy

why i dont feel their presence around me before? until the last moment, suddenly i know how much they treasured me as one of their precious friend...and my guilt conscience kick in like crazy...

huahuahua...

whatever~

one step toward womanhood (yeah~right...;p)

today is my cooking class!
i'm making cookies. i dont know what it's name, but according to my aunt (the recipe provider) it is called brownies. However, as long as i remember, the THING that i made was not brownies-more into chocolate cookies.
well, whatever it is named, it still the BEST cookies i ever done in my whole life ( lets see, i just make cookies for about 5 times? i guess...)
i'm so proud of it...
hehe...
here are the pictures of my DELICiOUS CooKies I EVER MADE so far~

understanding the meaning of 'piracy'

 

with courtesy mark shoyer (http://markshroyer.com)

interesting site...

hey guys, i just found out a site, an interesting site. the site is quite interesting to navigate. cool. 

the site is not about fun, movie/book review, music and sort. But the site is about a story. Real story. How the author of the site spending time with his dying father. his father has some quite resemblance with my grandpa. Personally, when i'm going through the site, i feel  quite sentimental. hehe...anyway, take a look at this site! 

Days With My Father 

p/s: to navigate the site, u only have to scroll and click the pic...

reflection

i got this from a dear friend. good enough to reflect on oneself of what i've been doing all this year. 

"Cinta Allah yang Maha Pencinta tidak memilih siapa, rupa, gaya dan bagaimana keadaannya.CintaNya boleh direbut oleh sesiapa sahaja, asalkan rajin berusaha untuknya. Cinta yang tidak pernah luput walau sesaat malahan terus berkekalan. Berbeza dengan manusia yang hanya cinta pada yang disukai dan diminati. Cintanya pula bermusim dan tidak kekal. Sewaktu disenangi dicintai, bila jemu atau benci tidak lagi dicintai malah ditinggalkan. Cinta manusia juga terhad dan ada kepentingan. Isteri cintakan suami kerana suami tempatnya bergantung. Ibu mencintai anak kerana anak itulah penghiburnya di kala sunyi. kawan menyayangi kawan kerana dapat berkongsi merasai senang dan susahnya hidup. Pengikut sayangkan ketua kerana ketua menjadi penaungnya. Namun allah yang Maha Pencipta“kadangkala kita berdoa untuk kuat tapi banyak dugaannya, apabila kita minta cerdik tapi masalah pula timbul, adakala kita meminta kebahagiaan tetapi huru hara pula, namun sebenarnya dugaan itulah menjadikan mental kita kuat, masalah itulah menjadikan kita berfikir, huru hara itulah menjadikan kita tabah, namun sekiranya kita melihat hikmat setiap kejadiaan itu.. kalaulah manusia tahu hadith ini” telah berkata jibril a.s : wahai tuhan , engkau sampaikanlah hajat hambamu ini, maka Allah s.w.t menjawab : biarkanlah hambamu itu, kerana aku mencintai suaranya.. (yakni suara orang beriman yang sentiasa berdoa)”riwayah anas bin malik r.a.. "

repressed desire

i have these kind of desire; to give all my best in;

1.  whatever i'm doing.
2.  what/stuff that i like.

as far as i concern, if i ever reflect on myself for this 19 years i live,  i only had fulfill my desire for no 2. but not so much for my desire in no 1. 

why?
i tell u. both desire are different. completely different.
why?
figure it out by urself. 

why? 

who knows...

...

is it still possible to move forward while holding on to past that you can not possibly abandon?