Showing posts with label mess. Show all posts
Showing posts with label mess. Show all posts

Monday, August 11, 2008

Questions that have no definite answer.

Today is the graduation day~! yeay!!!
i'll upload pic on the flickr later on, but as for today...

i were asked by a so-called friend, ( as we are not close enough, heck!)
"why people love to leave something that complicated and leave people in vain?"
and i said...
          ''what?''

who the heck he refering 'people'?
Out of nowhere he blurt it out, I was clueless.
Then he left me, with his sharp,sinister looking on his face.
That, enough to ruin my day, in addition some of my stuff I left on table are nowhere to found.
Luckily, i have my friends around me, although just a bit, help me forget of what he said earlier to me.
But, at home, those question keep ringing in my head, till it make my head hurts like hell.
I can't just ignore what he said, as he say it with 'that' face.

As i keep on recalling the question he asked, i wondering, isn't it should be ME that suppose to ask him the questions. What in the world he thinks of himself?
For those who knows me, u might know who the hell i'm talking bout right?
Well, it just that, i want to fret my frustation on the net, it's annoying though.
haha!!!
I want to go sleep~...tired...

Saturday, July 26, 2008

REVIVE!!!!

revive!
after more than a week my antibody keep on increasing their numbers, fighting with all sort of viruses+bacterias, my body condition had returned to it's healthy state, eventough, there still some part of my body seems having it's aftereffect of the battle between the antibody and the pathogens.
but, whatever it is, the main point is...my body revived!!!
yeay! i want to celebrate it!

having this kind of battle had keep me restraint from doing my daily 'vigorous' activities.
  •     unable to eat all my favourite dishes+snackes
  •     unable to play outside from my home
  •     unable to move freely on my own accord
but, what makes me feel very agitated is,
unable to stay up late night in front of my laptop [thus keeping me off from the network and watching my fav vids]

now, i fully back on my feet...i should take my revenge head on!
yeah! let's surfing like crazy! 24/7!!!
wuhuu~!!!

Friday, July 11, 2008

Is it wrong to be 'different'?

Weird...i have this kind of 'interest' which make me totally different from people around me.
eventough i'm still in the right path, but deep down myself, i know i'm different, in a way that contradicts with the norm in society...
Oh my~
i hope someone will help me keep me straight in this path...
but i wonder if anyone understands with what i mean with 'different'.
it's quite troublesome actually, to split it out what exactly i'm 'different'...
i think...
i had to perseverance as
"perseverance will bring great success" ~quote from someone else's motto...>,<

Thursday, July 10, 2008

waiting in vain

from that day on, i still keep on waiting.
waiting for something that is hopeless.
bah!
~~~

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

Social Network: My Space, Facebook, Friendster, etc...

lately(or should i mention, eversince the IB result was announced?), there are some of my blogger friends and friends that asked me.
" do u have any social networking account? u know...my space, friendster, facebook....and sorts"
heck of course i know. I'm ITGS student, i know what the h**l of social networking.
instead, i'm telling those people
" i delete my account already,it had been months now, since the IRP program starting around april"
some of those people stare me blankly, some laugh, ( probably they already seen my page even before i delete them, so they know it's quite impossible if i'm saying that i delete those account, reasoning how interactive my page was).

But also, some people bother to know why I delete those account (why bother? my choice right?), and some even dont even bother to ask why I delete those ( heck! they only asked me bout it so that they can 'expanding' their network by 'add' me as their 'friend'! Damn! like I care! - well I do care in a way)

ok, for those who asked why, let me tell u-clearly and frankly, what those social network means to me.
it means nothing, wasting my time, nurturing so-called 'popular' attitude...

I know, these site exist to keep friends in touch ( of course, that's why these type of site exist and keep expanding), letting others keep updated about our self. ( ppl can choose what info to be updated bout) and getting new friends. Instead, above all the reasons, i find myself lost in the network.
i dont know why, but i don't put up info so much in my page (like usually people do. Well, I do feel some kind of inferior?) and I was sucker at keeping updating my own profile.

"so u dont have these accounts, how u manage to keep update with ur friends?"

"i'm using IM(currently using ym), and all my friends have my ym ( i suppose). so, if they want to know the very updated info about me, they can directly asking me through ym, that's clear, and i know who i'm releasing my personal info to, more like i feeling secured this way actually"
They asked me
" so, other people, outside of ur friends circle, know nothing bout u? i mean, this is WWW and we are now in globalization era!"
Heck, why i need to use social network just to say 'hello! i am globalizing!'

daa~. i have my way to say that i'm globalist! then, why these blog exist in the first place??? also, not only i have this blog, i have several sites, and one of them is at flickr! (why am I so proud over this thing? o yeah, i'm still obsessed with Flickr, since i just register at it days ago)

arggh~these people, only know to condem other people, who did not go 'along with their flow'. laughing at people just because I'm different.
heck, i'm the one who laughing at u people! because ur all the same! hahaha!!! ( laughing like a freak moron~)

Gee, why i'm get carried away over such lil thing?
answer: because i got worn out being asking the same question every now and then!

ahaha~
i REAAAALLLLYYY messing up myself...( that's not a good thing, i suppose. blatantly i feel despair, sorrow...oh dear...)

p/s: this entri somehow using numbers of words-that-should-not-be-posted.

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

dump??? kudaran na~...

just now...i've been dump
dont get me wrong.
it's not that i already have couple or something
but it's just kind of my 'hope' is being dump away by that person
i know what he up to
but it's just too much
after getting what he what to know
he left me
just like that
without having even slightest gratitude of expression of being a human
so...fake
gee...he should have some conscience, awareness or something of handling those people around him.
i should ignore him
but...
what should i sya, i'm too kinda to trust him that he changed
even slightest
ah~
sometimes,
i hate myself
i should know how to manage my relationship with others...
what a mess...